After this week filled with beautiful chaos I decided that the events of my life are too extraordinary not to write down. If you asked me at the beginning of the week how my life was going I would have laughed in your face saying that I’ve had the worst week of my life but I read an article that completely changed my perspective. I realized that I need to confront myself and my weaknesses before I blame others for the sadness and disappointment I feel.
In order to become the person I want to a be. A person who is compassionate to everyone, someone who spreads love with every step, someone who radiates positivity, I need to be honest about the demons I have been to afraid to confront. I am a hypocrite, I don’t accept disloyalty from others but I am guilty of rationalizing my bad behavior. I am constantly seeking approval and validation from those around me especially men instead of loving myself. I am guilty of negative self talk every time I look in the mirror when I should appreciate the healthy body that God gave me. I see things in black and white, I expect perfection out of not only myself but those around me and that isn’t fair because we are merely human and we make mistakes. I am going to start a journey towards self discovery and I’m going to love every step. I realized that there is something extraordinary living inside me and I can’t wait to find out what it is. I know I have a purpose in this world and I need to love and find myself before I can help and love others in the way that God created me too. I’m going to be independent, daring, brave, loving, positive, adventurous, and above all happy, starting today.
So it’s nice to meet you. I’m Taylor and I’m letting go of all of my pain, all of my insecurities, and all of my grudges. I’m 19 years old and this is the start of the rest of my life. Who you have been and where you have been does not have to determine who you are or who you’re going to be. I’m inviting you to enjoy this journey with me and although I will give you chronicled events of the past so you can understand who I was until this point. I am most excited to write about my promising future and keep you updated on the beautiful present. Enjoy this beautiful chaotic life with me if you will. I hope everyday you have is filled with more love than the last.